stage 3

I thought that i am really looking forward for poly life. Am i so reluctant to accept the new surroundings? Or because i am putting up more burden for my parents? Poly fees is SO expensive! Why is there so much difference between a JC student and a poly student? Students of the same age- but poly students expenses are so much higher than JC students. My dad asked me this afternoon on how much my school fees is? But i suppose that my school fees is going to give my parents a shock. My mum is a housewife,my dad is looking for a job now and only my brother is working now. Money is never enough...

Should i look for another job? But who will want to employ a student who is going to start school soon and will need to plan her schedule over and over again to fit in to her school time table? Besides that,leave should be grant for her when exams round the corner. If i am the boss,i will not employ her too.

Singapore kids and teens are so fortunate. Branded clothes and bags,lastest electronic items bought by their parents. High spending power...singing sessions in kbox,movies and eating in those high class places. I yearn for that life too...But who will think of how hard their parents earn money when they use their parents money to buy the latest phone when their parents are only using non-coloured and no camera phone? Just because their children are throwing temper over a ipod,their parents will still buy for them. I admit that i did that before by throwing temper when i wanted something but without succeed in ''threatening'' my parents in buying. But i came to know that earning money is so difficult when i am out working during vacation. I don't want to be a ''fan lai zhang kou,qian lai sheng shou'',a mummy's boy/girl.

Life is never smooth sailing. Grandpa is still in the hospital. Condition seems to be worsen. What can i do or help? Nothing...I'm not the doctor who can cure him and i'm not the nurse who can ease him from pains. So the best i can give-pray for him. Hopefully he get well soon,so everybody will not be upset for him and my mum need not to so worried and tire everyday. Hopefully my dad get a job soon too.

''Shui hui shi zui hou de sheng chun zhe?''