Feeling so 'alone' recently.
It is both good and bad.
Good in terms as i need not see and hear any nonsense. Some nonsense really gets on my nerves. And ya,i told myself that the world can never be square and so,more nonsense will be created.

Bad in terms as i can feel that i am being neglected and maybe sometimes,whenby people will decide themselves without asking my opinions on an issue and when they get their discussion results then tell me. So of course i can say nothing.
And maybe sometimes i just happen to be there when some discussions are on and 'shun bian' ask me for my opinions. So if i am not there,they will still decide on themselves.

Or maybe sometimes,they happen to talk about some things that they don't want me to know in front of me and one of them will try to shut the others up too obviously. But usually i will pretend not to see or hear anything. And i will wish that i am not there.

Not pointing out whose at fault now but in fact theres no one is in any fault. Perhaps i'm thinking too much.
Perhaps what i thought are correct.
Perhaps is me who cause misunderstandings or happens that i showed certain impressions to others in my way of expressing some stuffs in speech or actions which is not my intention.

There are so many perhaps,maybe and buts in my mind. No answers for all questions. So please,tell mi nicely when i am in wrong in some ways. I may not accept things of whoever you said to me at first but i will reflect on what is being said to me. I still know what is right and wrong.

Hopefully i am not trying to be emo here and being over sensitive towards some issues which some random thoughts manage to convince me in a negative way. I shall just sit still and observe further. At least there is a glimpse of hope which i wish for to prove that all my negative thoughts and feelings are all wrong.

Afterall,i may be just an attention seeker.

When thers an 'U-turn' sign in life.